My family left yesterday.

They travelled over 36 hours to visit me and we spent five weeks together.

In each others pockets.

24/7.

There was once a time where I vowed I would never do another family holiday.

They were tumultuous at best you see.

Of course there were good times, but the lens of my childhood and teenage years saw them intertwined with conflict and dysregualtion.

It has only taken several years, an immense amount of growth, reflection, active healing, and living overseas to have experienced a great family holiday.

But they left yesterday.

Logically, I know what I am supposed to do and how I am supposed to navigate this time.